"I Won't Do It Again!"

 

I muttered "Sorry, I won't do it again, Lord." again this afternoon when I arrived late for the preparatory we had today and remembered  (almost immediately!) how much I've said the same thing over again for lateness. 

We were to convene at a bus stop in school by 2:30pm. which I' was already aware of. Few minutes past two, I already had this nudge to go and start preparing... I did though (after some minutes!) and by the time I was done with everything I was late again. My Friend, Favour had to come and check on me. It was really embarrassing! Especially when it has happened too often to call a habit( well it really is, now) 

I felt guilty and sorry especially when I muttered my usual 'mantra' and remembered how much I've said that in the past, YET it's still the same. Even, as I type this, it just occurred to me that I haven't really prayed about it neither have I asked the Lord to help me with lateness. I was just trying to do it on my own. ( I will do that after this).

In the Preparatory, we discussed Guilt and shame. How shame is one of the many effect of guilt that lead to a response of turning away from or to God. And now, I see how much they are connected. Hmm!

How many of us, already have so many 'I won't do it again, Lord!" moment that it brings shame to even say it again? I searched for the picture of my youngest daughter (niece ) to give you a picture of how we are to God. I will still share a few because she's that beautiful and lovely, lol.

With her elder Sis❤️

Her innocence sends so much Peace when you look at her. Children are indeed home.

I had to add this particularly... Though she looks so messed up...she still hasn't lose her beauty at least in my eyes. I still love her and see her the same as in other pictures...hope you're getting the gist.

God LOVES us unconditionally. That's not to massage our irresponsibility but to encourage us to draw near and ask him help when we keep falling into the same 'misrake' over again. He sees us the same and wants more than ever to help us only if we allow him . We talked about Judas Iscariot, Adam and Eve and how shame drove them away from God's presence and also brought David and Peter to limelight, who though they sinned also didn't let their shame to be the end of the story.

We all have moments of guilt and maybe you're still held down by the shame that guilt has brought. Don't let shame to be the end of it or drive you away from where liberation is. Let the guilt drive to to change. To repentance. To God. I hope you come back to knees of Abba. ❤️

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Dear Lord, AGAIN! I keep repeating this. I feel ashamed having to admit the same mistake over again. Thank you for not despising me despite all.  I ask for your help to overcome this. Give me the grace to discipline myself inthis area to be able to say NO and keep to it. Thank you Lord for your strength.